hai~~
i really duno wad im thinking about nowadays...
should i go bac to china and juz settle there??
i really duno...
i think im trying to escape...
hai~~
buden i really wanted to go back...
so many frens here r leaving...
all my china frens have left...
ruiping is going to go...
and i really duno whether i should go...
hai~~
so confused...
sumtimes i really regret not going bac...
if only i have gona bac wif my dad...
den everything might b resolved...
buden theres a lot of things thats holding me bac...
for example...
de mangas...
de squash team...
hai~~
outside world seems so nice...
hai~~
should i juz give up everything here??
i really duno...
feel like crying now...
i miss all my frens there...
miss my dad...
miss everyone over there...
i really regretted...
y din i agree to go bac yrs ago?
and now everyone is leaving...
ruiping...
dong"...
meng"...
feng"...
even all my badminton mates went bac...
now left me and de other only...
hai~~
y is this so???
i think im juz trying to escape...
trying to escape from this world...
i dun feel like living anymore...
i juz feel like giving up everything...
sumimtes i feel that going bac can solve everything...
sumtimes...
...i juz feel like leaving this world...
hai~~
i really duno...
im really confused now...
can someone tell me de way out??
can sumone juz tell me de direction??
should i go bac to china??
i really duno...
i need help...
-chen"-