i just realised how screwed up my life is.

firstly, my la file is supposedly due TODAY. mine will be handed up only on monday because first, i forgot to bring my file home, second, i just couldn't find my commonwealth essay and motivational speech rubrics. and there is a high possibility that they are now in a dustbin somewhere out there. yes. freaking hell.

secondly, i'd been staying back late nowadays just to rush through my homework. i didn't go for trng today cos i had my bio sia deadline to meet. how screwed? i guess the MC is just giving me crap excuse to delay my homework. because of the stupid MC, i'm slack and think that i can just skip training to do my homework. yes, i still can't train, but i could just go there to train the juniors, so i won't lose touch. MILO IS IN A WEEK, DEAR.

thirdly, my ih test is screwed up. i interpreted the sources wrongly. heck. i shall not let it affect my mood

lastly, CA results were screwed up. A2 overall. it might be a good grade but not for me, not in the class. my class is competitive, so? that does not give me an excuse for screwing my results up. and i am THAT close of being "suspended" from squash. yes, my mum expects me to get at least A2 overall in order to let me continue trng 2 extra days-that's why she is so concerned and sort of complained to zxq. yes and i am just that close. WAKE UP AND WORK HARD! i do NOT want to stop squash just because my results were screwed up. no matter how bo chap i am, i cannot afford this. (yes, i got "suspended" last yr cos my term 2 results were really very screwed up. to the extend that my dad had to see zheng PERSONALLY, and zheng asking me to write a reflection about my performance, in which i didn't, duh. i am lucky that i managed to scrap past the A2 line.)

i can't stop trng at this point of time. i cannot, and i don't want to. there is still my commitment to fulfil. ;) (faeces, remember our ULTIMATE commitment? xD)

yes. and i realised that my overall has been wandering around the A2 mark, never above A2, never below it. (or maybe there is before. can't remember. will confirm after report book is back) as a result, i shall work hard and try to achieve A1 overall. CA is the easiest one to get A1 overall. rather impossible to get A1 overall (EOYs+CA+SIA). SIA will just pull me down.

ok. really have to stop now. no point ranting everything over here and not do anything to change the situation. i really have to go find the bloody commonwealth essay and rubrics.

and. i tried to jump to smack a mosquito just now. and my ankle hurts now. >.<

sorry. i feel guilty not going for trng.

have to go pia holiday homework already. there is really a lot of homework. :(

BYE. (: